BFF'S

so there's this girl who i met at a club about hmmm i don't know 5, 6 years ago give or take. when we first met there was something about her that drew me to her. she had the best personality, very out going, she was and is so much fun. At the time i was hanging with a different group of girls who didn't like her because i believe they felt threatened by her so me and her never really hung out. A couple of years went by and i ran into her at different club. We exchanged numbers and started to hang out more. We would go to the clubs all the time together, we drank together had each others back and it was just so much fun. I would never thought that me and her would ever be as tight as we are. She didn't have that many FRIENDS and neither did i. i guess i just saw in her what no one else would,her beautifully spirit. You see she would put up this front and act hard so no one will get real close to her but i never gave up. Till this day i will never give up. She is my best friend, she's like a sister to me. We make each other laugh at random dumb thing we say but i wouldn't trade her for the world. We are both growing up and maturing but we're doing it together and I'm just so glad i have her in my world and in my walk with god. We are both far from the girls we were back then and i am proud to see her growing and to call her a FRIEND. She has been going through a lot lately but i believe that god is preparing for something MAJOR she just wont see it now. All i could do is be here for her and support her in every decision she makes..MISS LIAV123 (LOL) I LOVE YOU BZ

Clear Mind

Romans 7:23 - "but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members."

This couldn't be so on point right now and everyday in my life. I go thru a constant battle between good and evil everyday within me. There are so many things that i need to change in my life to be right with God that its over whelming and i don't know where to beginning so it make it easier to give up. There more i think about what i have to fix the more i move away from God. Sometimes I just wanna go back to how i was before I knew of him, things seem to be simpler then. But i cant give up, i am an example to many out there, I am his daughter and i have a responsibility to make him proud. He died on the cross to wash my sins away and i refuse to let my sins define me who i am. I am i fighter not a coward, I am humble not frivolous, I have the heart of the biggest lion. I cant give up now because I'm only a third of what God wants me to be. I cant give up because I have to full fill his vision of me. I cant give up now because he has giving me so much and the only way to repay is to obey him. most of all I cant give up now simply because he loves me.

Father, give me the strength to continue in your path. FORGIVE me for I have sin, I am not perfect. Remove the dark cloud that's covering my eyes and keeps you out of sight .Forgive me if i have stepped out of bounce at one point but I'm right back in the game.. I love you father. In JESUS name AMEN

THE SIDE CHICK

I recently started talking to this guy, well we haven't even talk on that level. He is a costumer from my work and every time he comes we talk all the time. It so obvious there is a mutual attraction there. He's so funny, we get along real well. We have a lot in common. We have the same views in life but there's only one problem.. He has a girlfriend. Now I've met this girl before and she's real nice from what i can see but he just don't seem happy. Well we exchanged numbers and we started texting back and forth just friendly, flirty stuff. We had made plans to go out one Saturday and just get to know each other better no harm in that, we weren't doing anything wrong or betraying anyone so i thought. Well he cancelled on me because his girlfriend was home and couldn't get out. Even though i knew he had a girlfriend and i shouldn't trip off it it did bother me a lot so i texted him back and told him that i didn't wanna play with fire, that it was best to keep it strictly business and that i would see him around. He didn't respond and we left it at that. A couple of days later he texted me and gave me some explanation on what happen that night and why he couldn't text me back. I wanna believe him and by all means he might be telling me the truth but it doesn't change the fact that he still has a girlfriend. so basically i feel like I'm betraying myself because i don't wanna be "the other" i wanna be "the only". though i really like him A LOT and we connected right away and have this GREAT chemistry.i refuse to sell myself short and settle for less. its very confusing because i also think what if he's the right one? what if it grows into something bigger and better? but i cant let all the "what if" cover my eyes from the reality... HELP

NeW BuT LoViNg iT

First and for most i wanna thank god for being.... GOD. Without him i wouldn't be here today. IM kinda new at this whole blogging thing so bare with me. I cant help to feel scared as i begin my walk with god i mean i completely place my life in his hands but i dont know if im capable of fullfilling what he wants me to be.there so many ifs ands or buts that im so confused.I know that he believes in me but im not sure if i'm ready for what he wants me to be. i dont think i have it in me. I love my god with all my heart, he gives me the strength to continue in life.Whenever i'm down, he picks me right up and holds my hand thru the dificult times. my god has ALWAYS come thru for me, even when i didnt know him, now i look back and see me in his arms as he's lifting me from the ground.He never fails. That is why i know not only i'm i gonna be whatever he wants me to be but i'm gonna be honored and make him proud.

Lord i pray that u give me the strength to continue my call and to take all tha negative in and make it positive.I pray that u open my eyes to se the bigger picture and not lose focus.In the name of ur son Jesus AMEN