I commit

I commit to being fit by the end of 2008. To lose just a couple lbs...lol.. Nah, to lose the Lbs needed to be fit. Not to look good because I do already..lol.. But to feel better. I wanna live a long time to spread the good news and I can't do that if I continue like this. Every year my resolutions were to lose weight and to quit smoking. Well last year I quit smoking ..(Yaaaay God) and now I gotta work on my weight. It really hit me when we did the week of prayer at the beginning of the year. On the last day when we did the prayer on top of the hill, oh wee, that killed me. I tried to walk up that hill like a champ and when I got to the top, my heart was beating so fast I felt like I was about to have a heart attack. I couldn't catch my breath I was trembling. It was a slap in the face. Like I could really die and soon if I don't start taking care of my self. I have lost 5 Lbs since then and have more to go but I know that with God all things are possible. My goal is to walk up that hill again next year like a true champ and not have any problem when I reach the top.

I Thank you...

I'm so excited for all the things that's God is doing in my life. How much I have grown from when He first saved me. How much I have learned and wanna learn. I'm always asking my pastor questions about this and that, and I'm sure he's like ugh..LOL..but I'm still gonna ask (sorry P. Nick) =) . I wanna be in leadership some day but I know that I'm no way near ready. God knows the desires of my heart and has been giving me hints here and there to let me know I'm going in the right direction. He has been working with me and what I love the most is that its at my pace, He's not rushing things to happen and hasn't giving me more than I can handle. I know that I still have a long way to go but I have to start preparing now and even if I don't make it in leadership I would still have the experiences and know Jesus on a deeper level and no one can take that away. Its a win win situation if you ask me =).

I thank you Father for the work you are doing. For allowing me to make a difference in peoples lives even if it just one. I thank you for believing in me and just being there for me every step of the way. For surrounding me with people that have the same goal in life and that also help me prepare to what you have called me to be. I love you!!!!! Amen

Not an ordinary day

This morning I asked God to give me a different experience and that He did. Before work I stopped at a liquor store to buy something to drink. As I was walking in, there was this old homeless standing by the door way. He looked tired, hungry and physically he looked like he hadn't showered in months and he smelled like it too. I went in the store got my drink and decided to give him some money to buy something to eat. I walk out, handed him the money and said "God bless you". I walked over to my car and before I got in I turned back to see him and he was gone. I walked back in to the store and he was not inside, I walked around the building to see if he was around there and nope he wasn't anywhere near. Now I know he couldn't have gone far because the store is in the middle of no where and any direction you walk, you cant miss them. So I came to the conclusion since there's is no other explanation that it was a test from God and that homeless guy was an Angel. It gives me chill just to remember. Then I get to work and as it is very slow I take my bible out and start reading. In walks this costumer who come in a lot that I have a hard time liking her. Her personality, they way she treats others just annoys me. Well she saw I was reading the bible and told me how she just started going to a christian church and how she loved everything about it. How she was just amazed at everything she learned and how she wants more. Next thing you know we were talking about how God is and how we were created in his image and also to worship him. An hour had past by and we couldn't stop talking, it was so crazy. There I was talking to this lady who I couldn't stand before telling her the beauty of Jesus. It was a different experience all right and the day is halfway done. I cant wait to see what God has planned out for the rest of my day.


Father thank you for being who you are. Thank you for giving this opportunity to share with others and to also learn from this experience. The bible says "Take delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." and that is exactly what you have been doing with me. I love you but not for what you have done to me but because of who you are and what you have done for others. With love Amen!

Breakthrough

I had a breakthrough last night during our Sozo class. They asked us to search deep inside and ask God to show us what is keeping us from certain things we wanna do. Basically Sozo ourselves. I started with something simple and when he showed me I was like WOW. It all made perfect sense. OK my issue has always been 'praying for others' not being able to say what needs to be said. Feeling unworthy to be up there, but he told me yesterday how can I help pray for others when I my self don't ask. Like before when they did Altar call I wouldn't go up to ask for anything because I don't know what to ask for. I never liked asking for anything, I figured if some one wants to give, then they will. I just realize maybe I'm afraid of rejection so I rather not ask..hmmmm..I pray all the time but I'm not specific on what I pray for. I pray for him to protect my son, my family, to keep us from temptation etc etc, but I never ask for like a better job or a better car or ummm I don't know my own place. I feel like if I ask for all those things or anything to benefit ME then I'm being selfish. I guess what he was trying to tell me was that how can I do it to others when I have never experience it my self. At Altar call people will tell me what they want prayer for and all I have to do is come in to an agreement. Funny I have heard all this before but I didn't understand it until God broke it down for me. How awesome is He!

Focus

NUMBERS 14: 3-4 "Why has the LORD brought us to the land to fall by the sword, that our wives and children should become victims? Would it not be better for us to return to Egypt?" So they said to one another " Let us select a leader and return to Egypt"

God will never trick you into something that might harm you. Everything He does is to benefit us because He loves us. He heard His children's cries and delivered them from Egypt but all they did was complaint on how "bad" they have it now and yet forget how bad they had then. It is easy to forget where we came from and take what we have for granted. Even thought our past does not define who we are, we still gotta learn from it. I'm sure they were scared to go forward and that's why they complaint thought the years. Its hard to follow something you cant see and thought they had the promise right around the corner, it was hard for them to see tomorrow. Our promise has always been right there for us to grab a hold of but we chose to make it harder on ourselves by not focusing on God.We consume all of our energy in whats going on around that we miss whats right in front of us. For some of us today its easy to fall back into the world, to go back to our old way. God never intend to make them walk around the desert for 40 years. If they would've only listen to Gods word instead of themselves they would have made it to the promise land sooner. That basically applies for us today. God is anxiously waiting to give us our promise but since we aren't 100% committed to him we keep falling short.

Father I pray that you keep my eyes fixed on you and not on my surroundings for I don't wanna take 40 years for my promise. All though times are rough right now I thank you because I have you to fall back on. Thank you for all the love you have for and for showing yourself to me when u did. I love you!! Amen

ON FIRE

I'm so fired up right now I feel like AHHHHHHHHH...lol. Man I was so filled with the Holy Spirit from the minute I walked into worship during first service till the end of the second service. It was so outta my control. God was working me and I loved it. I didn't fight it, I didn't care about anyone there but God and me. We had a guest speaker and his wife at church and they were good. They had a good word and it explained a lot to me. They pretty much prayed for every individual there. His wife gave me a word but I was so consumed with the Spirit of God that I cant really remember what was said. I kinda remember her saying something about my hands and she made sure to put an emphasis on HANDS like telling me I have 2 hands and I was gonna do great with both and I had no limits. I really don't have a problem with it ....now.... but it took a lot of pain growing up for me to get here. I had been laughed at, called "hang lose", pushed of the bike like 5 times just for being different. Having little kids spit on my face for just no reason at all. Those are just a few. Until one day it hit me and I didn't care anymore. Its true when they say God will turn your weakness into strengths. I love that I'm unique. Really I'm one of a kind and He takes pride in the way He made me. I am capable of doing anything every "normal" person does just tweaked a little and better...lol...anyways to sum it all up God is so AMAZING...

You are WORTH dying for...

So here's the scene,
He's on the Cross, doing the will of the Father and number one thing on His mind... is you.
Yep, Jesus went to the Cross because
1) He was gonna do the will of God and
2) He wanted you to be able to have the relationship with Him desired. Jesus...
He took it ALL for YOU!!! Every beating He got was for you. He didn't care that it hurt, He wanted to set you free. See Jesus wants you to understand that through all the pain that He went through it was worth it. Jesus says this to you, "You are WORTH dying for!!" See the thing that we sometimes forget is Jesus already knew who wouldn't love Him, who wouldn't believe in Him, who would betray Him, yet even when He knew that He still took it all on the Cross for you. None of us deserve what Jesus did/ does for us. But the fact of the matter is He did all for us. Don't let people tell you that you are worth nothing. Don't tell yourself that you are worth nothing because it's not true!! Just ask Jesus, He knows! love ya'll!


Now those of you who know me, know that i didnt write this and your right i didnt ..LOL... but it was just so powerful to me that i had to share with others.