Never the same

Ok let me take you back about a year ago. IT was a Friday afternoon about 5:30 bbecause i had just gotten outta work. I get in my car and star driving home. At the stop light i lit upwhat was my last cigarette and i dint have money to buy another pack, so I said like I did every other time i couldn't afford anpther pack, "that's it! im quitting" little did i know what was gonna take place later that night. I get home and im just sitting in my car waiting to finish my cigarette and just killing time untill the Fuse. i finnally fginished and said " This is it God, no more cigarretes for me". yeah , how many times have i said that before. so the time came for me to go to the Fuse. I had my worship music on in the car, just singing along but all i couild really think was how i couldnt have another cigarrete even if i wanted to because i was BROKE and that made me want it even more. So i get to church, say hi to a couple people and sit down, just another friday nothing different. Worship takes place and i had just started attending the Fuse so i wasn't so confortable going to the altar. ok , so worship is over and Pastor Nick starts speaking just saying this beautiful message that honestly i cant remember exactly what it was ...lol. Its was like i was in OFF mode and all od the sudden i hear hime say " NEVER THE SAME, NEVER THE SAME, NEVER THE SAME" those words activated something in me and i was on fire. He then had ALtar call but guess what?... I was still too embarrassed to go up but let me tell you, that didnt stop from doing His will. I was crying outta control and i didn't know why. Then i started praying this prayer " God, dont let me leave the same, cahnge something in me. I want to have thats life changing encounter with you". i was trembling, crying, had this overwhelmed feeling but i coudnlt understand what was going on. God was giving me the encounter i asked for. Service was over put His presence was thick that people stayed to soak. I left, but i didnt leave the same. That very day, that very exact moment, God answered my prayer and a miracle took place. It has been a little more than a year that i have NOT picked up a cigarrete nor do i crave one. After smoking for over 10 years my addiction wasnt bigger then my God and in Him all things are made possible. The Bible says in Mat7:7 " ask and it will be giving to you, seek and you will find, knock and it will be open to you" His word never comes back empty because I aked and it was giving to me.I seeked and I found, I knocked and he open for me. I am ever so thankfull for where i am in Him today.


Lord thank you for that encounter that started all the other encounters. I thank you for being my strenght when things get rough andf i know that you have everything under contol.You are my everthing and i love you so much. In Jesus name i pray.. AMEN!!!!

The king of pop is dead but the King of Kings is alive

Michaels death seems to be the talk of the town. How everyone seems to get all worked up about it. Yes it is truly sad but thats part of life. We all have an ending to our story. Someone had mention how their childrens children will probably hear about this, just like we still hear about Elvis. BUT what about Jesus? He also died, and no body seems to be as excited about Him. Is it because its "old" news now? I have gotten tons of texts from ppl, crazy twitters and on facebook too and everyone is talking about MJ but when someone mentions Jesus He don't get the same respond. Its sad how The King of Glory dies for us to live and the crowd goes silent and when the king of pop dies the crowd goes wild. We need to get that same excitement back. My King gives me Life, Joy, Peace. He is my Provider, my Savior, my All. He is my strength when I am weak, 2corinthians 12:9-10. His Grace is all I need. He sacrificed His life for ME. I don't know about you but that's something to get excited about. He knows everything about me (us). What makes us cry, what makes us laugh. How many times we toss and turn at night. He know the desires of our hearts and get this.. He gives them to us just like that.. That's how much He loves us. It doesn't stop there. He knows what we need when we need it and will even help us get there. He make all things work for my good. He loves me, He loves me He loves me, that's more than enough for me. His "death" might have been long long time ago and not right outta the press but its still an IMPACT. The bible says the only way to get to Heaven is thru the Son and all He wants is our hearts in return than He can have all of me:my heart, soul and mind.

Jesus thank you for who You are. For what You stand for. For the sufficient love You have for us. For giving us nothing but the best. For walking with me hand by hand. For being my strength. Thank You for being my Savior and I know that without You I would have nothing. I love you and I will shout of joy when it comes to You. AMEN

Courage

Then David said to the Philistine " You came to me with a sword, you came to me with a spear, and with a javelin. But I come to you in the name of the LORD of host, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied." 1 Samuel 17:45



David knew the Lord was with him therefore he was able to face what was ahead of him. How many of us know that God is with us but don't know know.. you know?...lol... We know that God is with us but we don't believe it. Could you imagine if everyone of us walked around with the courage David had to face our problems today, knowing that He's right there with us. It would be a powerful world and the enemy will be powerless against us. I my self have a lot to learn but I want to someday walk around with my head held up high and with such authority and confidance and yet still be humble. To be able to face my problems head on because I know I have Jesus. The enemy will continue to attack us just like with David although he defeated Goliath that time, it wouldn't be the last of his obstacles. David went through more blocks in his life but he kept going because he knew who was with him. And because of his obedience David came to be great in the Lords eyes and the king of a nation. Our obstacles today makes us who we need to be tomorow.



Father I pray that I stay in tune with you, ur commands and ur wishes. Make me strong to overcome whatever comes to attack me and try to get me against ur will. I pray that you make me more like you and that i understand who you are more. I want more of you, in Jesus name. Amen

UMM, UMM, UMM

Im still so pumped up from this Sunday. They had a free breakfast at the CWCM campus and the Easter production. I have this excitement for Jesus right now that i cant control. I feel like I have A.D.D...lol.. I cant stand still. I love to see people comming together for one purpose. I am so blessed to have been a part of it. I can not wait for next Sunday in San Jose. I have all this thoughts in my head just roaming and i cant put them together to make sense, thats how excited I am. You how when a little kid is trying to tell you an exciting story and they get ahead of them selfs and they keep saying "umm, umm , umm " and continue the story and none of it makes sense to you but in their head it all make perect sense. Thats me right now..lol.. I just wanna run up and down the halls but im @ work so i have to wait till lunch. well mabe i picked the wrong time to blogg cus im too wired to focus so i'll get back to you later.. tootles..lol

DIFFERENT VIEW

I could easily start this by saying how difficult my week has been etc etc, but that would be giving the enemy credit which i don't intend to do. Instead I'm going to start by changing my focus on Jesus and seeing things through His eyes. I see God just working issues within me and building character in me. Testing how well i handle "difficult people" and btw i failed..lol.. but that's OK because i have a God who forgives me and loves me and takes me side by side and HELPS me deal with issues so i don't fail again. i cant wait to see what God is doing in my life and the outcome of all chaos.


Father i pray that you give me strength to get through this. Also keep me focus on the import things and not give in. Thank you for doing what it is your are doing because i know that is working for my better good. I love you, Amen.

AHHH...AHHH

OK so here's the issue. I'm going to be in the Easter Production and I have never been so nervous. I don't know why, well I kinda have an idea.. I guess I'm scared to fail, to mess up the play. I know its very important so I have a lot of pressure, and I only have like 10 lines...lol... ( I know whack right..) Its really getting to me... u might think that I'm making it a big deal but I don't like to speak in front of people, I stutter, my mind goes blank, I get a rush etc etc. I don't like to be the center of attention, I'm more of a back stage kinda girl. This is really, really I mean really stepping out of my comfort zone and I'm so like ahhhh I cant do it. I'm going to do it any way but I ask those of you out there to pls pray for me to have strength to do it, that everything comes out smooth and that I don't stutter..lol.. or get stuck... dude I'm like so shaking right now I have butterfly's in my stomach just to think about it and its getting closer and closer.


God I know I have prayed for this before but I just ask that give me courage to go thru with this. That you will be the one speaking and not me. To take the fear out of me to be able to do you will. In Jesus name, Amen.

support system

I learned something new today, I learned that not everyone in your life is there for to benefit you. Sometimes God places people in our paths to just drain us so that He may be able to fill us up again. Everyone has a purpose in your life. We also need to have a support group that will lift our spirits when we are down. Jesus himself had his own support group, Peter, James and John. Not to say that He had favorites but those were His people. He took them to places He didn't take the other disciples. He also had 3 more people who supported him outside his 12. Martha, Mary and Lazarus. Jesus was able to just go to Martha's house and just unwind. Able to just relax and be served instead of serving. We need to find our Martha's and Marys in our life, our Peter John and James to get us through things. God never intended for us to go through trails alone, we have Him to rely on and also our real friends to count on who God himself put them in our paths.

God I thank you for the group of people who you chose to be my friends. For the great support I have with my CWC family. I thank you for you and the love you have for me and knowing that I'm not alone and I have you to lean on. Truly yours