DIFFERENT VIEW

I could easily start this by saying how difficult my week has been etc etc, but that would be giving the enemy credit which i don't intend to do. Instead I'm going to start by changing my focus on Jesus and seeing things through His eyes. I see God just working issues within me and building character in me. Testing how well i handle "difficult people" and btw i failed..lol.. but that's OK because i have a God who forgives me and loves me and takes me side by side and HELPS me deal with issues so i don't fail again. i cant wait to see what God is doing in my life and the outcome of all chaos.


Father i pray that you give me strength to get through this. Also keep me focus on the import things and not give in. Thank you for doing what it is your are doing because i know that is working for my better good. I love you, Amen.

AHHH...AHHH

OK so here's the issue. I'm going to be in the Easter Production and I have never been so nervous. I don't know why, well I kinda have an idea.. I guess I'm scared to fail, to mess up the play. I know its very important so I have a lot of pressure, and I only have like 10 lines...lol... ( I know whack right..) Its really getting to me... u might think that I'm making it a big deal but I don't like to speak in front of people, I stutter, my mind goes blank, I get a rush etc etc. I don't like to be the center of attention, I'm more of a back stage kinda girl. This is really, really I mean really stepping out of my comfort zone and I'm so like ahhhh I cant do it. I'm going to do it any way but I ask those of you out there to pls pray for me to have strength to do it, that everything comes out smooth and that I don't stutter..lol.. or get stuck... dude I'm like so shaking right now I have butterfly's in my stomach just to think about it and its getting closer and closer.


God I know I have prayed for this before but I just ask that give me courage to go thru with this. That you will be the one speaking and not me. To take the fear out of me to be able to do you will. In Jesus name, Amen.

support system

I learned something new today, I learned that not everyone in your life is there for to benefit you. Sometimes God places people in our paths to just drain us so that He may be able to fill us up again. Everyone has a purpose in your life. We also need to have a support group that will lift our spirits when we are down. Jesus himself had his own support group, Peter, James and John. Not to say that He had favorites but those were His people. He took them to places He didn't take the other disciples. He also had 3 more people who supported him outside his 12. Martha, Mary and Lazarus. Jesus was able to just go to Martha's house and just unwind. Able to just relax and be served instead of serving. We need to find our Martha's and Marys in our life, our Peter John and James to get us through things. God never intended for us to go through trails alone, we have Him to rely on and also our real friends to count on who God himself put them in our paths.

God I thank you for the group of people who you chose to be my friends. For the great support I have with my CWC family. I thank you for you and the love you have for me and knowing that I'm not alone and I have you to lean on. Truly yours

I commit

I commit to being fit by the end of 2008. To lose just a couple lbs...lol.. Nah, to lose the Lbs needed to be fit. Not to look good because I do already..lol.. But to feel better. I wanna live a long time to spread the good news and I can't do that if I continue like this. Every year my resolutions were to lose weight and to quit smoking. Well last year I quit smoking ..(Yaaaay God) and now I gotta work on my weight. It really hit me when we did the week of prayer at the beginning of the year. On the last day when we did the prayer on top of the hill, oh wee, that killed me. I tried to walk up that hill like a champ and when I got to the top, my heart was beating so fast I felt like I was about to have a heart attack. I couldn't catch my breath I was trembling. It was a slap in the face. Like I could really die and soon if I don't start taking care of my self. I have lost 5 Lbs since then and have more to go but I know that with God all things are possible. My goal is to walk up that hill again next year like a true champ and not have any problem when I reach the top.

I Thank you...

I'm so excited for all the things that's God is doing in my life. How much I have grown from when He first saved me. How much I have learned and wanna learn. I'm always asking my pastor questions about this and that, and I'm sure he's like ugh..LOL..but I'm still gonna ask (sorry P. Nick) =) . I wanna be in leadership some day but I know that I'm no way near ready. God knows the desires of my heart and has been giving me hints here and there to let me know I'm going in the right direction. He has been working with me and what I love the most is that its at my pace, He's not rushing things to happen and hasn't giving me more than I can handle. I know that I still have a long way to go but I have to start preparing now and even if I don't make it in leadership I would still have the experiences and know Jesus on a deeper level and no one can take that away. Its a win win situation if you ask me =).

I thank you Father for the work you are doing. For allowing me to make a difference in peoples lives even if it just one. I thank you for believing in me and just being there for me every step of the way. For surrounding me with people that have the same goal in life and that also help me prepare to what you have called me to be. I love you!!!!! Amen

Not an ordinary day

This morning I asked God to give me a different experience and that He did. Before work I stopped at a liquor store to buy something to drink. As I was walking in, there was this old homeless standing by the door way. He looked tired, hungry and physically he looked like he hadn't showered in months and he smelled like it too. I went in the store got my drink and decided to give him some money to buy something to eat. I walk out, handed him the money and said "God bless you". I walked over to my car and before I got in I turned back to see him and he was gone. I walked back in to the store and he was not inside, I walked around the building to see if he was around there and nope he wasn't anywhere near. Now I know he couldn't have gone far because the store is in the middle of no where and any direction you walk, you cant miss them. So I came to the conclusion since there's is no other explanation that it was a test from God and that homeless guy was an Angel. It gives me chill just to remember. Then I get to work and as it is very slow I take my bible out and start reading. In walks this costumer who come in a lot that I have a hard time liking her. Her personality, they way she treats others just annoys me. Well she saw I was reading the bible and told me how she just started going to a christian church and how she loved everything about it. How she was just amazed at everything she learned and how she wants more. Next thing you know we were talking about how God is and how we were created in his image and also to worship him. An hour had past by and we couldn't stop talking, it was so crazy. There I was talking to this lady who I couldn't stand before telling her the beauty of Jesus. It was a different experience all right and the day is halfway done. I cant wait to see what God has planned out for the rest of my day.


Father thank you for being who you are. Thank you for giving this opportunity to share with others and to also learn from this experience. The bible says "Take delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." and that is exactly what you have been doing with me. I love you but not for what you have done to me but because of who you are and what you have done for others. With love Amen!